The most miserable part of my life so far...

Im currently in sem4, and had sat for the End Of Semester 4 Final exam on the 10th-13th of August. I can still remember clearly, the questions that i had attempted for the 1st day of Final for the Pharmacy Practice 1 (PP1) subject. After the final, i thought i should had pass all 3 exam paper eventhough i did my calculation wrongly for the 1st compulsory question of PP1. I calculated and estimated my marks for PP1 and i shud be able to pass it as i am confident in the another 2 questions. Who noes...

The day had came,which was the results releasing day on the 2nd of September, when i took over the result slip,it's thick,which mean,i've failed any of the 3 subjects,and it's PP1. At that time, duno y,im juz shocked for a while and my mood had return to its normal level. I gt 46,short of 4 to pass. Maybe because deep inside myself, i think that i had already pass the subject as i juz did a very silly mistake in the calculation and i duno y my stupid and fucking mind while doing tat question will allow my hand to write out the stupid mistake and i realised that only after the exam,it's too late. There was a moment im wondering and struggling while doing tat question and just like usual,when there is A and B,i'll always choose the wrong or the more difficult 1,without myself knowing it,so if u let me 'tembak' objectives questions,sorry,i will surely fail it.

I duno why,even if i get 3 out of 20 for the 1st questions,i should had gt enough marks to pass from the another 2 questions,but why???And in the another day which is 3rd of September, there was a remedying poor performance workshop for those who failed their PP1. Mrs July and Dr.David Chong were the lecturers for us there.They discussed with us bout those questions in the EOS and i was shocked to know tat the answers they gave us were what i wrote for my EOS questions.Ofcourse,not totally the same but y my marks still so low for EOS then?Mayb my answers were incomplete.What to do,wat i have to do was prepare well for the resit...This time,i din really feel any pressure juz abit scared as this is the most decisive paper for me,stay or leave... From the 1st day i decided to enrol in this course,honestly i had never expected myself to be in this situation, i had never expected myself to resit any exams...Im totally dissappointed...

This morning,i had resit for the PP1 exam. I did wrong for 1 essay,and in worst condition,i may get zero for this particular essay. Hopefully there will be few marks,pray hard...In this case, i had only 40 marks in hand and i must get at least 30 marks over 60 to pass.Ya,for that 2 questions,im confident in it as well,but,likewise for the EOS paper,which i did wrongly for the calculation and im confident in another 2 questions,but wat came out?it's not what u can expect...40 marks in hand for me is really very risky...im like standing on the cliff,will drop down anytime...it's so unsafe....Haiz...im damn worry and damn stress right now....anyway,i've made the worst assumption now...which is,i will be dropped out form the course and will not fly to uk with those MQs....this kinda unsecure feeling,i've lost it for very long time and ofcoz the crying feel,i cried infront of my mum,i feel so sorry to them...why,why i choose to do the 2nd question but not the HBM question?even if i duno how to elaborate atleast i will still gain marks for those concepts of HBM that i've memorized....ntg i can do now but to wait for friday,it happened and there's no way back d....and these waiting days are really scary,even more scary than those waiting days i went thru in previous sems for EOS results,this time,it's resit results....

If i really pass the resit,i wont let this kinda thing happen again...no more failures,no more resit....no more mistakes,never!!!! If failed,goodbye to all p108s....u guys have made my life interesting and im really happy and glad to noe u guys and have u guys as my frens...especially to cheryl,fiona,wendy,khern,whelan,shiennee,stephanie,engseng,genyuan and many more...wil miss u guys lots....and wat reminds me bout cheryl now is her wishes and gifts for me during my birthday,it's really touching and im appreciate it alot...thx....good luck every1....

waiting for 4 more days.....haizzzzzzzzzz.......

2day is really great!!!!

Yup,7th of december!!!! Duno wat kinda holiday is tis la...it's something to do with those malays 1.....so,it's a public holiday and every1 is free on tat day...

Ok,start from the morning,my grandma was staying overnite in my houz,at 11.45am,we left our houz to selayang there to meet up with my aunt,uncle them,and also my cousins la....Wao,tat restaurant quite cool,my aunt had booked a room with karaoke system 1 leh....this is wat we wanna DO lo!!!!my cousins and i keep on singing oni...bt,at the beginning,i haven open up my voice la,haiz,poor performance of mine at tat time,luckily after that im back in form ad,haha....

Ok,here are some pics i snapped during tat time...

Trisha(left),Celia(down head),Donovan(top head),me

After that,we went home asing-asing...but we(my parents and i) were heading to Low Yat to send the wireless LAN detector for repair...So,i went to TS to meet up with my 2ndary school frens,6sAi-ians...but i had missed out the lunch session...haiz...

Ok,luckily i managed to capture some pics...

The couple lo,Yvonne and WeiKang

Me and YeeSiew(Tis pic she looks quite fair leh)


Yu Long aka FishDragon,QiYun(most BZA guy in world,always said himself leng zai 1,haha),Me


Our beloved ex-monitor,WenJie(aka Leehom by me,haha..serious lo!!!) and me

Me and SiuXian!!!!haha...

Fei Ying(Yvonne lo) and me...

Waliao,she looks damn mature lo,like my sis oni...

SNIPE!!!!2 WaiHongs....He is wei kang,and im wei hong la!!!

Ok,at nite....i went out yumcha with my primary school frens!!!but like a very small gathering lo,me and another 5 guys oni...but next week will be our BIG gathering!!!actually we are having the gathering annually 1,but past 2 years every1 was bzing,coz of exams...but tis year we will have it back!!!i think next week gathering will be the completed 1!!!! If got then i'll post bout it leh....

Ok,time to do report now...tata....~~

Suddenly got damn many 感触...

Every1 has to go thru many things,many stages of life in their own carreer...that's y,we are growing stronger and tougher when time goes by....this is wat the elders said,the experience of life,so called 'treasure' that cant be learn in lectures but only experience it urself....Haiz...Time and life will always be the very crucial thingy in our life...coz,they will take things away from u but at the same time,they will bring u something...

In our life,we will be growing up in kindergarden,then primary school,secondary school,college,university,and finally working...i think this is how every1's life roughly is...the routine...Haiz...In every phase,we will meet different kinda ppl...will have different gangs of frens for each phase...but,ya,those old frens will always be forgotten,unless they r very very closed to u b4....but,if we dun keep up the touch with them,the bond will become weaker and weaker...tat's y,life is crucial,since every1 is exposed to people which they usually meet for tat current phase,the bond with old frens will be weaken...unless u are able to spend plenty of time to retain the bond strength lo...Like my primary school frens,they are really my very closed and good frens,even we din meet for few years,but once we gathered,the feel is still there le,still like how we r being in standard 6....haha....

Haiz,so conclusion is,appreciate every1 u meet in ur life,u wont noe who u will meet ,and who will leave u...i think when i go out to the community working,i will meet another bunch of friends,mayb they will still like those frens i met previously,making frens with sincere heart?or with purposes??who noes...so,i hope i am manage to remain the bonding with all my friends of different phases...Gan qing tis kinda thing,really have to put in effort to maintain or even strengthen the bonding 1...

APPRECIATE EVERYTHING LA!!!!!!!!

Announcement!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Breaking news!!!!!!!

SAW THIS??!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They 'chen' ad!!!!!!!!!!! Really lo.... she admit it to me loudly also....wakakakakaka!!!!!!!!!!

They really 'chen' liao leh!!!!!!!!!!!

Wish u 2 good luck and all the best la!!!!!!!!!

hahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!

sweet man!!!!!!!

Pictures of Genting without Fiona and Cheryl!!!!!

Haha,they went to join their dears lo,i forgot how it happened ad...so end up only left wendy,kh,yzhe and me only...

Then,we took some pics which prove that we were actually capable of working as part-time POSER!!!! Haha....we found out that we were like capturing pics for the coverpage of bla bla bla magazines.... haha!!!! Ok,here they are...

Haihz....lazy rotate la.....so ma like tis lo.....
Cute look of kh with the tiger!!!!

Wah....who is this?? DAMN 有型 leh!!!!!!
Serious lo!!!!!!
Hahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!

wat do u think they r doing???from left(me,kh,yzhe)

Posing???haha......

Wendy!!!!!!!(With her cute post,i think she wanna find back her

childhood memory.....)

Wah!!!!she is body slam-ing me la.....

*still can laugh huh*

(we damn pro acting rite)

Omgosh...wat are we doing a??

*背对背默默许下心愿，看远方的星是否听得见

它一定实现~~~*

Both of us emo-ing???

Wei!!!!Dun plss....plssss....plsss dun wendy.....
Dun jump down to the lake to suicide la!!!

Acting cool??!!!

Wahaha.....this is is even more yeng and cool leh!!!!

kh:im emo-ing la....wondering how many fishes are there....

yizhe:Haiz,me 2 la...i duno wat to say....

me:herm,tat cloud quite cute,tranforming to something leh....
wendy:Hehe~~that cloud looks like me la,changing its look leh...

Haha...4 pro posers!!!!!

from left,stunned,imagining,smiling,cool....

Me,dy,yzhe

2 body guard protecting me??

Im like their BOSS leh!!!!!haha....

waliao,kh wanna vomit???

plastic beg pls!!!!!!!!

*kh,yzhe,me*

*myself*

Do we look lke the 3 monkeys??

*1 cover his mouth,1 cover his eyes,1 cover his ears*

*wendy*

OK,this pic is snapped by me....

*Nice leh the effect*
*Like a model promoting k800i*

*Cute pose of wendy*

Ok la....i think finished ad...since cheryl and fiona has posted those pics,i juz post those pics which they dun have la...Haha....So,without the 2 of them,we spent our time camwhoring oni...haha....

Tagged by w3ndee again...!!!!

1.) Could u actually accept sex before marriage? if let u choose, u rather have sex before marriage or non sex marriage?
Tsk Tsk...ofcoz after marriage la...safer ma...

2.) situation: your father has got a serious disease and need 1million dollar. you can have a large amount of money(1million) if u break up with the man/woman that u love very much. what would u do?why?
My girlfriend will understand de...and i believe in tis kinda situation,it will end up with a good ending.

3.)would u like to receive a diamond ring(from a rich boy/galfriend) or a gold ring but your boy/galfriend use his whole month salary to buy it for your birthday present?why?
Haha,for girls it's ok...but for me,i wont want any diamond nor gold rings la...i will only want it when i get to marry lo...but i will give those rings as present to my gf...

4.)dinner: would u like to eat dinner cooked by your boy/galfriend or go to a highclass restaurant?why?
Ofcoz is cooked by my galfriend de la...it's so sweet and full of love de leh...it's even more high class than those in restaurant la...

5.)assume you go for a plastic surgery, n after the surgery u found ur face is exactly same like the ppl that u hate the most(EG.leela, she also go for the same plastic surgeon),
wat would u do+why?:
Haha...no assumptions for that...i wont do plastic surgery...siao meh...

6.)u prefer hugs or kisses?why?(from facebook)
From facebook??Erm,depends lo...

7.)who is your msn favourite chatter?
Depends de wor...but more or less the same la...

8.)if u /ur girlfriend pregnant, and u /ur gf is/are goin off to oversea to further your study, will you stay or ask her to go for a abortion?
Waliao...ofcoz wont la...每个Baby都是上帝牵着手来到这个世界de wor.....Muz appreciate it la!!!!

9.)if you are able to go back to past time, when u wana go?
Erm,primary school??haha....

10.)if u can be any character of any series drama(eg. hk, america, taiwan), who u wana be?why?
Haha,leehom act b4 rite??haha...Leehom la!!!great in singing,handsome,tall,perfect...

Insomnia....

Haihz....

today...after went home from chic wings supper with wendy,cheryl,fiona,kh,cw and es....can't get into sleep...now oledi 2.35 am,i went to bed on 1am++,already 1 hour +...i still cant get into sleep...now still very jing shen... mayb....haihz...